You get what you expect

I keep reading and hearing that our world is a feeling based universe. Makes sense, as before language, we were just communicating feelings, much like animals.

And I've read, ask for what you want with the feeling of already having received it. So you thank for what you want as if you have it in your hands.

I can see my flawed thinking. I've lived as if what I want is out of reach, the feelings I have on a regular basis are; not yet, or it won't really happen, or oh well, I'd better take what I can get, cause the 'real' thing ain't coming.

Now I can see my 'job' is to catch myself inside of those feelings and chang them to one of prosperity, or 'I have it already and I am grateful".

It's a harder job than I ever thought to catch myself thinking inside scarcity, lack, doubt and worry. That is so common, that's the normal way of thinking. I risk looking foolish, and like a kind of dunderhead with my mind in the clouds. I didn't realize I was so influenced by what others thought of me. Must be something I learned as I've aged, cause I certainly never cared before. Like a gentle snowfall, my worry of what others think of me has crept silently into my thoughts, indistinguishable.

So the phrase "You don't get what you want, you get what you expect" now makes more sense than ever.

Be on Alert!

I am grateful for my awareness, for cell phones, for my dogs. for early morning walks. and for my car.

All this might sound strange, but I was walking my dogs in the park this morning, as we do every morning. (6 AM) Talking on the cell phone with Steve and Charlie, my coaching buddies, and I noticed a man hanging around the play sets.

As I am at this park everyday at this time, I know the usual people that come and go during the early morning. There is the guy on his bike with the two huskies, the two women that take a speed walk with their yellow lab, the husband and wife with their Jack Russel Terrier and a big mutt, and the lady with her two boxers.

We all come and go at various times. Today I was alone in the park. Which I was happy about, that meant that my dogs could run freely.

I was on my cell talking to Steve and Charlie, and I noticed a man. I thought it was strange. He seemed to be pretending to work out, but actually not getting anything done.

I kept my awareness towards him, finished my call with the guys and hooked up the dogs and began to walk to my car.

The man was working his way towards me. This was when I noticed he was in jeans, not sweats.

"Oh god, I thought, lets get the dogs in the car quickly." The dogs complied and I got in the car fast. The man had covered ground quite fast. I locked the car up and drove away.

I have no proof the man was 'after' me. Just the hairs on the back of my neck on full alert.

I will tell the other ladies that use this park to watch themselves from now on.

And I am grateful for my awareness. For my dogs, my cell phone and my car!