Well, it's March 15th. Been a long time since I've written here.
Lots has happened.
New job with California Dollars For Scholars, Hop releases in April, our taxes are done, good rebate coming, got a new washer and dryer, got it installed.
It's going well. However, I'm being tested beyond my current abilities.
We have a conference March 26th and I fear low attendance. That was my job.
Like the fox in this picture my goals seem out of reach.
The grapes are out of reach. My tendency is to call them sour and give up.
I do that way too much. Give up, stop, let go.
I 'know' I need to trust powers greater than mine to produce results, but my human brain can't seem to keep from getting cynical and pessimistic and giving up.
Crazy huh? We live in greater opportunities than all times and we find a way to see the dark side. We live lives of comfort and creation, and yet, we complain.
Wow.
This I need to look at more carefully. What is the nature of complaints? Why the need to complain? Why do we trust people more who are negative?
Is it a fear of being 'taken', considered a dupe? naive?
